Perhaps, and Transcendantal Youth is actually a nice album to mark the shift. In retrospect I can tell I was trying a little too hard to enjoy the last few Mountain Goats albums (Heretic Pride, The Life of the World to Come, and All Eternals Deck), and if I wrote up those albums now I think I'd be more likely to call out the clunkers, of which there are definitely a few on each album. But now I'm feeling a certain distance even from the stronger songs, so let's talk about why.
I can't get into details here, but I had some bad times in 2004, and to me it seemed like the evangelical Christianity I'd grown up with didn't have the resources to help me make sense of what I was going through. So I spent a few years trying to cobble together a new way of looking at the world. This involved a lot of intellectual posturing, as any long-time reader of this blog will have seen quite clearly, but it also involved some emotional reconstruction. And there's this running theme in Mountain Goats song of compassion for people who are struggling to get free of trouble that overwhelms them, even those who thrash about in really counterproductive ways. See "The Best Ever Death Metal Band in Denton" and "You Were Cool" for the classic examples of this. Or, from the new album, "Until I Am Whole":
On a picnic bench alone,I mean, the exact details aren't mine, but...
Watch the sky go dark.
Dig my nails into my hands,
Hope it leaves a mark.
I think I'll stay here,
Til I feel whole again.
I don't know when.
How could you live, being this raw all the time? I've managed to get a job, an apartment, various bank accounts, and so forth, nothing special, a fairly standard social role, and it seems like you just have to close your mind to these things to function. Perhaps I could put my headphones on and listen to "In Memory of Satan" (a song about the weeks or months when you've had to cut yourself off from all your friends to be alone with your soul's darkness) and feel about it the way I used to feel about "Distant Stations" from All Hail West Texas, but the song is about a past self now, and as a rule I don't like my past selves. In your late twenties, you can't let stuff like that cut through.
None of this is to say that I don't enjoy Transcendental Youth; I'm a sucker for these horn arrangements and the band doesn't sound like it's just trying out random genres in the studio like they have on some other albums. It's just a long way of saying that this is probably this blog's last long Mountain Goats post.
